so now what...

it all seemed alright...but now u cut me out of your life
it throws me back in time

i like my new life

although i doubt
did i choose this?
or was i torn into it?

and is it my choice to always be concerned about these subjects..instead of mathematics or painting?

and as i write this
i know the true answer
i know what i was meant to be deep down inside
but its not what is expected from me in society...

so do i have the guts?